Learning A Lot~About Myself

Yes, I'm still here. I know it's been a while since I've posted. We have been busy in recent days and weeks.

Just before Christmas, I heard another Christian for whom I have a great deal of respect say that he reads his Bible daily in a particular way. He reads one chapter from the Old Testament, one chapter from the New Testament, one chapter from Proverbs, and one chapter from Psalms every day.

For some reason, that really jumped out at me, so I decided to try it. Doing this every day has made SUCH a difference in my heart, and in my life!!! One thing that amazes me is that when I get by myself, pray, and then read God's Word, I am AMAZED at how much He reveals to me!! Without the aid of the latest christian book, Bible commentary, or another person, but just me and God in His Word, I have learned a lot about the Bible, AND about myself.

God has also been gracious enough to me to use many speakers that I've heard recently, both at church and on Christian radio, to speak to my heart. Also, I"ve done the first session and the first 4 days of homework from Beth Moore's study on Daniel, and it is FANTASTIC!!

Without going into a lot of long, boring detail as to how this came about, God is showing me some things about myself~things that need to change. These are things that ONLY the Holy Spirit could have shown me, because I would never have admitted them to myself, and I would, I'm sure, have refused to listen to anyone else who tried to show me these things.

But, it's hard to argue with the Holy Spirit. He has revealed to me that I am more controlling than I care to admit. He has also shown me that, in some areas of my life, I am something of a snob.

This last one came as a real shock to me. I am not a 'look down your nose at other people' type of person, generally speaking. But, I have come to see recently that in some areas of my life, I am a bit snobbish. Just by way of example, my husband and I recently had a disagreement over which of 2 local baseball leagues we should sign our son up to play for. I wanted one, dh wanted the other. I did not admit this to dh at the time, but the real reason I wanted the league I wanted is because the OTHER league is considered the 'red neck hick' league, while the league I would have chosen has less of that kind of a reputation.

This is so stupid!! LOL The fact of the matter is that AROUND HERE,. where I live, one league is considered more 'red neck hick' than the other, but to anyone from a truly metropolitan area, BOTH would be considered 'red neck hick' leagues. Besides, when it is all said and done, my son will be barely 5 years old and playing T ball, so what the heck is the difference which league he plays in?! I am really surprised at myself for being so upset that dh chose to sign him up with the 'other' league! Am I really that much of a snob?!

These thougths have left me sort of, well, annoyed with myself, I guess. It did not help matters at all that the shower door came off in my hand when I stepped out of the shower tonight!!! UGH! Thankfully, dh will be home all day tomorrow, so he will be here to fix it, and it seems to be something minor that can be taken care of fairly quickly.

All of this has conspired together to leave me feeling very out of sorts. I"m sure that the devil is happy about that. The final straw was later tonight when I found out that a person whom I have always admired for their spiritual walk and their firmness in standing on the Word of God, has done something that is in direct opposition to Scripture. I am not speaking here of a brother or sister in Christ who has sinned, then repented and asked forgiveness. I am speaking of a person who has made a choice that Scripture CLEARLY states is wrong, and yet the person has somehow justified it in their own mind and is not only unapologetic for it, but believes others ought to agree with it!! I have to wonder now if the advice I've gotten from this person in the past on spiritual matters is sound or not.

Once again, I have many more questions than I have answers. Don't you just hate when that happens? :)

Blessings,
Vicki